Just let it go

Well I am more than happy to say that I am genuinely happy lately.
I am eating decently clean and I don't really care so much anymore.
Well I do care but I'm not like obsessed with losing weight anymore.

And this has made me a very happy girl. I just really hope over time I can learn to love myself and accept being in my own skin.

I am excited as there is only 2 and a half weeks left of school for me and eeeeek!
Maybe maybe maybe visiting Calgary again this summer, possibly and probably not but hey there is hope because from Vancouver, it is just one flight.

Of course I am excited and nervous to be back in vancity but you know what...I just keep repeating this to myself whenever I find myself getting stressed or down...

"Just let it go"

Let it all go and let life lead you. Nothing will change or get better because you stress about it...you get better at something by practicing and working hard. Sometimes fate decides for you and thats that. Just let it be and let the desperate feeling for control GO.


I promise you will be much happier.
It also helps me whenever I'm down to think about how grateful I should be and how blessed I am to have the things I have and be in such a great situation I am in.

I feel like I am slowly getting myself back, whoever that is...it's scary but I think I like it.

If you're stressing about finals like me and just in general get super anxious and stressed about everything just keep repeating the phrase "let it go" in your head and take deep breaths.
You are going to be okay.

You will get through this.

I believe in every one of you reading this because everyone and anyone has the chance to get through their obstacles in life however big or small.

Think about people who don't even have that chance...people who are stuck with no food no shelter forever.
People who can't get over their obstacles no matter what they try.

I don't know about you but in my opinion? Thinking more of other people in the world is a much better use of your time than always thinking of the negative things that are happening to you.

Stay strong everyone! <3

Always,

Ariesangels

First love

Don't think people ever completely get over their first love.

That's the person that had the most of you, the purest form of feelings, right in the palm of their hand.

It's esp hard to completely get over your first love when he is your best friend.

It fucking sucks camel dick actually.

Thought he was perfect for me.
Still think it sometimes.
Then I feel guilty
Cuz he has a gf
Then i remember it wouldn't matter anyway
Cuz I never was and never will be good enough for him

Then I'm like whoa girl wait
YOU DONT LIKE HIM
then i proceed to bashing myself up
Why
Honestly
Maybe i'm just lonely and pathetic
God lets just hope that is what it is
Or I miss him so much so I'm going delusional
Yeah thats a good one too
Gonna stick with that

I. Don't. Like. Him.

I'd rather like Noah than like him. And he's a bastard. So.

WELL FUCK EVERYTHING BYE

P.S. I'm pretty sure my mind is just making up boy problem scenarios cuz it makes me forget about my other problems woohoo useless blog post here it is